Resurrections
By GiffanyCD
I see myself in the mirror
A brown-haired girl, with blue eyes, and a wide figure
I’m glad I saw her, and not… my past
I’m glad I’m at least able to escape them
In my mind, they won’t leave me alone
They constantly torment me
THIS ISN’T ME ANYMORE, LEAVE ME ALONE
I can sometimes escape, but some haven’t seen how much I’ve changed.
I can’t resurrect these old habits
It fills me with anxiety
This image won’t leave my head
It’s like a tumor, that won’t go away
I see myself in the mirror
Wait, why is her hair purple?
Her skin looks pale
Her hair looks unkept
She has red eyes
IS THAT, ME?!
What happened
Have my insecurities gotten to me
She’s finally taken form
My Anxiety
She won’t leave me alone
I keep having panic attacks
Her Slasher Smile
It’s getting bigger
It takes up 90% of her face
It scares me
She keeps whispering dark, horrible thoughts to
She won’t stop
I can’t breathe
I can’t do anything
“You’re not an artist” she says to my face
She’s trying to put me down
“You’re not a real girl” she says to me
“You are not real” she snickers
I LOOK AT HER
“If that’s the case, then neither are you” I say with tears in my eyes
She goes away for a while
I’m still myself
Thankfully
But I feel horrible
But I know she’ll come back
Am I not good enough for her
Everyone says I’m beautiful
Everyone loves me and wants to support me
Who told me these horrible things others wouldn’t tell me
DID SHE DO IT?
They all love me
They think I’m pretty
I make them laugh
I’m a good friend
I’m a real girl
I won’t let her get to me anymore
“I’m real, and I’m pretty” I say to myself as I almost break down crying
I go to talk to my friend
I message her, but as soon as I do it, I begin to breakdown crying
“I’m sorry” I type to her
“It’s ok, I’m here for you” she texts me
“Everything is gonna be ok, soon you will be complete” she tells me
I can feel her giving me the biggest hug ever, well I’d imagine if she was her, she would do that
It’s ok Giffany
You’re fine
I’m fine
And I’m real
And you’re real as well
I’ll always be there for you
Thank you for being there for us, Giffany