I'm taking a break from Discord, I've had too many incidents this year alone. too many people saying horrible shit to my face.

I'm just gonna say it, it might as well count as verbal abuse with the words they pull outta their ass...

I'm gonna chill here and post art instead of using Youtube or god forbid Discord.

I handle bullying pretty badly.

You know, this last week ruined my mental health, and I may have even soiled my reputation. but I wanna look past it. I messed up. So, I shouldn't let it ruin me inside.

I've been trying to recover from what happened recently. I wanna apologize to Cube and everyone who got involved with the drama. I may have gone a bit too far with my actions.

Cube, I didn't mean to do the things that I did, but I'm sick of being the only one to notice your actions sometimes. maybe someday we could be friends again, but only if you're willing to change. and only when I'm ready to not act like an asshole anymore

Well now that that's over with, I'm gonna lay of Discord for a long while. I know some of my IRL friends use it, but I'm really burnt out ATM... anyways, before I go to bed, here are some things I was working on while I was away

I came up with a new form for Libitina, sorta her true form in a way, I wanted to make her look even more creepy than she already does. I also updated the lore a bit. Might post that tommorow

here's some art I did for a recent video I made. since the video quality was pretty shit, here's an HD version of the art I guess

Oh. and I made this.... I'll explain another time who this is... her name is Tiffany and she's a cutie-pie. let her cook

she spin

speen

OK GN

THIS MAKES ME HAPPY

anyways, I'm able to draw actual shit again, without borrowing someone else's tablet

here's a sketch I made

Holy cannoli Mario, Alien Hominid getting an Orange. BM looks pissed about that

anyways, GN

So, I just passed finals for this semester... all I'm going to say is.... bitch It got delayed like 3 times due to the roads being shit and I'm just like

I'd love for my pen for my personal tablet to come in, so I don't have to borrow my family member's tablet for drawing and shit

I realize nobody reads my Newgrounds posts (aside from like 3 people, you guys are awesome BTW), I'm not making a Twitter, I don't care, Twitter makes my brain hurt

so I have Youtube Community Tab if you wanna keep up with constant updates and me apologizing to people every 2 seconds for the shit I do

anyways, my pen comes in Monday (hopefully this time) so that means more non-sketch art will be posted to my socials

enjoy

This doc is a full list of almost everything I use to make content, enjoy

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1cJEm9Mm8a0AexQx_HXeDjnVvvrqLsBHIvGtY99gyd_w/edit?usp=sharing

almost everything on the list you can get for free, but some things you have to pay for

ok, I'm working on the pixel day art, it's like 5AM, and I feel wide awake

Please help

I gotta do something for it, aaaaaaaaah

HEY EVERYONE, GUESS WHAT, I CAN DRAW/MAKE MUSIC!

I'm gonna give some recommendations if you're wondering what software I use.

-For my digital art I use Krita. the reason is quite obvious, it's free and it's used by many artists. it's also what I've been using to animate for FNF. I honestly don't wanna get Adobe Animate or Photoshop because I can't afford the cancer plan (I don't even wanna pirate that shit, I'm good with Krita, as long as I can replicate the FNF art style).

now I could use Flash CS6, and that does sound pretty good, but for now we Krita'ing.

-I use a Wacom Intuos tablet that I got for Christmas recently. it gets the job done. before I just used a mouse, and I did a damn good job with it. I also got another drawing tablet (I can't remember the name of it, but it seems better than the one I'm using). But I'm gonna stick with this one for now.

-For music production, I use FL Studio 20, I might upgrade to 21 soon.

-Instruments I use for my music are mostly soundfonts but also some good VSTs, they are

-Surge VST (good Vst with some good Synths)

-STH instruments soundfonts (underrated and should be used more than GenesisSF in my opinion)

-Sonic Battle and Sonic Rush soundfonts

-Ultimate Hideki Sample Pack and Sonic CD Sample pack

-Magical8bit VST and NES VST

-Fruity Slicex for most samples I need to arrange precisely (before I just did it manually by hand)

-SMG and Touhou soundfonts (sometimes)

-Flex VST (this VST saved my ass multiple times) I use this for "old flash game Bass" I like to call it

-Earthbound and Mother 3 soundfonts my beloved

-Samples from whatever I feel like that day (Amphibia, Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, AOSTH)

I'd love some recommendations of VSTs I should use, that is free as well (I'm poor).

-For audio recording, I use Audacity and a Blue Snowball Mic for recording, I mostly go in FL studio 20 for effects.

If you want some tips on how to make music... IDK, I got like maybe 2.

For FNF music, I recommend trying to just do your own style, I've been trying to replicate Kawaii's style for a year now, and since I don't have the instruments and VST knowledge he does, I can't do it successfully, the FNF devs said they wanna see something different for the official game, so compose how you want.

I also recommend this, if you get an FLP and are planning to make a remix of it, I advise you to do more than just midislapping the instruments and calling it a day. I love it when people change the melody of the voices to a different melody since it's more than just opening a chromatic's folder and replacing the voices that way, try going "what would I do if I composed this song" and what would you do differently than the original composer had in mind. try to make it your own.

ART TIPS? ummmm, hmmmmmmm, that's a hard one. I'd say try to improve your art style but still make it your own, art is subjective Afterall. If you have a style that inspires you, go crazy trying to replicate it!

there are like a million videos on how to improve your art and animation, so watch those if you want.

How I draw is hard to describe, I try to replicate PhantomArcade and Paul Robertson's art style, but keeping my own style in there somehow (which is inspired by The PowerPuff girls and Sonic art styles).

it's up to you!

stay funky

I mean I do Pixel art all the time, this could be fun

not gonna enter to make money, I just wanna do something for Pixel Day

I wanna get some things out of the way for new viewers and followers of my account, so I'm gonna answer some questions I might get asked eventually

-Q: How old are you, you sound like a dumbass 13-year-old

A: I'm 18, I was born in 2004

-Q: I hear your voice in your videos. but your avatar is a girl, but you don't act feminine, Are you trans?

A: yes, I'm trans female (She/her pronouns). just cause I don't act extremely cute and feminine doesn't make me less of one. I act different from other trans girls, but that's just because I act different from most people, in general, I seem to notice, (also don't worry, I'm super nice, if I come off as rude, I'm just pissed off at something. woman like me can be rude sometimes)

-Q: is your name really Giffany, also why are you obsessed with her

-A: my name isn't Giffany, (sorry), but I appreciate you calling me that. My preferred name is Nicole, but I got a shit more names I go by sometimes (I don't mind being called Sarah, Amy, or Tiffany, those are other names I might consider if Nicole loses it's luster)

and Obsessed?, that's a bit on the nose (wait, shit, your right, thread over), I mean, Giffany's design is just kinda perfect in my mind, it's like why people like Sonic, Giffany's just aesthetically pleasing (and SFW, why are most Pink-Haired Anime girls NSFW, that makes me sick), Giffany means a lot to me as a character, which is why I made her my PFP, also she's a transition goal (like who wouldn't look like Giffany)

-Q; why is your username GiffanyCD

-A: well lemme tell you a story. I wanted to change my old channel name (it had my deadname and just sounded stupid) then one day I was rewatching Gravity falls and go "well I never watched the Giffany Episode, I'mma watch it" and then I watch it, and my whole life changed

I was already a trans girl at the time, but after watching that, I truly became a woman. I liked the episode so much, I thought of a good username, I liked Sonic CD, I liked Giffany, she was on a Disc, so why not make that my username?

and that's how I became this, and after that, I noticed people actually wanted to watch my videos. the end

-Q: You seem to be obsessed with Faker/EXE, why is that

-A: I just like the character, Black Sun is just a good song, 10/10

-Q: wait, what's your stance on the Vs Sonic.exe team

-A: gonna make it simple... Bad devs, Good Songs

-Q: Enough mods EXE shit, Base game thoughts

-A: Friday Night Funkin' is an awesome game, and also the devs make some good shit, I enjoy it whenever PhantomArcade makes a shitpost or streams. I hope the Offical FNF Devs take their time with the game, I also heard the devs hired someone from the mod scene, and I'm hoping it's underrated (or Chugunry Gunnery, I need him to compose for the base game, PLEASE), either way, I see a bright future for the full game

and personally, I listen to Base game songs more often than most mods, (with exceptions of course)

PhantomArcade, Ninjamuffin, Kawiisprite, MTH, Evilst8r, and the other devs who work on FNF, if you see this post. thank you for such a cool game, I can't wait to see what you guys got cooking

-Q: Favorite FNF Mod/s

-A: pffft, you know what I'm gonna say

my favs are 7quid, Hypno's lullaby, and Vs Cassete girl

They're great mods, also Hotline 024 and Vs Online are also awesome, check those out

-Q: How's your mental health doing, your recent posts seem, questionable

-A: It's not doing that good!, these past 2 years I've been moving constantly. school luckily has been going better. I'm on a show called Knight watch, it's the school's news thing, sometimes I even make a segment for it

Mentally, I'm going through a lot, Depression, Gender Dysphoria (yes I can still have that even though I'm out fully), I know for certain I have anxiety as I have it constantly.

If I'd like to give some advice on Anxiety, don't let it take you over, It's fine to be cautious, but taking risks can help people grow as people. for example, I didn't wanna go back to school at first, I was afraid people would judge me in a new school. but I took a risk and went back there, and hey. some people are rude and try to give me shit. but most people are nice and the teachers like having me show up to class

but back to my mental health, it's getting to a point where it's hard for me to sleep at night due to my hyperactive brain and anxiety and shit, I have missed a bit of school because of it. but there's a silver lining

I'm on a list (Oh no) to get into therapy (OH THANK GOD), so I might see a therapist, and hey if we're really lucky, I can start HRT and finally take care of my physical and mental health (and get a job, please get a job Giffany)

-Q: why haven't you been making content

A: School, My editing software is broken and I'm not going back to Movie Maker

I mean, I just have so many ideas, but like they're unfiltered and I don't feel like I'd make a point making the videos

I'm talking about possible commentary videos... also here's the thing, I don't wanna make commentary videos, I'm not a commentary/Video Essay channel. I'm happy to make VA content, but I don't wanna make a 3-hour long video where I "analyze" a movie or something, and instead I just tear apart a movie and act like an asshole

what was I talking about again? oh yeah, content

More remixes and VA shit, and hey, you might get some FNF content, I do have a drawing tablet now (You might get something Nova-related, but not Vs Nova-related, don't count on it)

-Q: you said your name's not Giffany, but is your persona Giffany

A: Yes, I can say with certainty, that the Giffany I draw with Sunky/Scott Pilgrim eyes with a completely different bowtie thing. that's supposed to be me

-Q: I saw your Giffany design with cat ears... are you a catgirl?

A: yeah, I am, I don't draw myself with cat ears anymore, because I just wanna be Giffany, but I'm still a catgirl

also, I'm not a furry, just cause I have cat ears and a freaking dinosaur tail, doesn't make me a furry

-Q: you voice act, could you voice act for me

A: it depends, I'm still pretty amateur, I don't know how to control resonance or any of that, I just do the funny voices somehow

If you want me to voice act for you... IDK just DM me on Discord or Newgrounds (I don't use Twitter)

also, my Discord is GiffanyCD#7155 (i really don't like giving out my discord, but I know Newgrounds users are chill so here ya go)

-Q: yoooo, you draw, that's so cool, can I commission you something

A: hehe, I don't really take commissions at the moment (that might change in the future), mostly because I don't know how they work. also, I don't have a PayPal or any way to get paid money online (mostly because I make my art and stuff for free)

but I might try commissions, that is if you like seeing ripoff PhantomArcade-styled things (that's my style)

-Q: Giffany, how are you doing

A: I'm so tired, I wanna go home, this place I'm living at, this isn't a home, AAAAAAAAAAH

other than that, I'm doing ok

-Q: Who's Libitina

A: Libtina these nu- JK, Libitina's a twisted version of Giffany I made who's sorta like an Alternate Universe Giffany, she started off as a parody of EXE characters, but became sort of a slight homage to them

I might make some more content related to her.

-Q: hey, what are you gonna do once you finish school, that's like almost done, right? Right!?

A: no, this might sound depressing, but my ass has two more years of school after this one, let's just say I dropped out of 8th grade, did nothing for two years, and then got into High School

After school, IDK, I might do college, get an apartment, and finish transitioning. it really depends on what my outcome is

I might be homeless living in a dumpster for all we know, my life RN isn't looking too good, Like it took me 5 years to get into therapy, and only now am I on a list to see one, which is a 6-month wait

-Q: got any collabs planned

A: well I'm hoping I can Livestream with my friends sometimes (If I have time and no interruptions from family members), I was thinking me and a friend of mine, known as Pickle Nugget Gaming could collab somehow

as for some Newgrounds artists, PhantomArcade or BinejYeah, if you ever need me for a collab, fucking hit me up

I'm helping work on an FNF mod right now, known as Stampverse Stumble. I can't say what I'm helping with, but if the mod gets finished, you might enjoy it

I'm mostly busy, I gotta fix my shitty living situation and school, but other than that, I'm down to collaborate, as long as the project interests me

there's a lot of shit going on in the FNF fanbase, people getting canceled or framed for horrible shit left and right, I'd say be careful who you trust and get to know the person first before you work with them

The internet can be a rotten place sometimes, I want you all to stay safe

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FAQ over

Anyways, now that I have gotten all the shit I wanted to answer out of the way, I'mma either go to sleep, or drink a shit ton of water (I've been so dehydrated for months now)

anyways, I think I didn't miss anything (I THINK) so Stay Funky, y'all

I AM SO FUCKING DRAINED